Believe it or not, this title is not inspired by the movie, Everything Everywhere All at Once. I came up with it in 2018 when I thought about publishing a physical book of poetry. I never saw that goal through as a physical book, but it was in some part accomplished as a published e-book of haiku which featured different work than you see below.
This is mostly a collection of old poems written throughout my life in response to trauma, siuation-ships, and break ups. Writing is very much a cathartic experience for me. It is a huge part of my healing and growth process. It is part of my identity too – it allows me to be creative and vulnerable. I get to narrate my response to life and then share it with others who consume it in ways I could never imagine.
The title, Everything at once, then nothing at all, tries to capture the purgative nature of each poem in this collection. It also tries to capture my experience with my emotions as a young adult. I felt and reacted to things intensely and in extremes, there seemed to be very little in between.
Therapy and healing my inner child have, and still are, teaching me how to regulate my emotions. Everything doesn’t require a BIG response, yet all of my responses, even the big ones are valid. I can return to my baseline whenever I want, it’s up to me. I can also name what I am feeling and take the space to process if I need it and come back when I am clear and level-headed.
I am looking for ways to reach larger audiences and be published, if you or someone you know can help please reach out here.